Like skinks with neon blue tails, I see them skitter through the house on their way to the pool, leaving behind ever-lengthening footprints of moisture. I listen to their screams of delight as they plunge into the cold water, watch as they splash each other. They fight and hug and fight and then hug some more, and I whisper a prayer, Pleaseplease let them always end their fights with a hug. They will, if they are very careful and very lucky, always have each other--a fact I remind them of as often as I can work it in. "You may or may not always have a friend, but you will ALWAYS have your brother/sister," I tell them, "So love each other. Forgive each other. Remember, when you are older and far away, that you need to pick up a phone once in a while and check on each other. It will be worth it, I swear."
I glance up at the calendar and see that another day has, indeed, pulled us closer to the coolness of fall and the dreaded day when they will start school again. I hate that day, when those breaths-of-my-breath move a little closer to leaving the safety of the nest forever, a little closer to leaving me alone.
O what pain, my soul--I miss them already.
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Lieing in bed, I was wondering what is the point of it all ? When kids just have to grow up and move away. While I consider her a part of me now, but I will have to 'let go' when she grows up.Because everyone wants to move away become themself and not a 'part of mom'. So its just a matter of time, just another 18 or so years....
And then the smiling part of me said, 'every moment of those years will be more than worth it...'
*gulp*... That was a roughy...*swallowing the tear lump gathering in my throat*...what a lovely sentiment cuz. You have certainly rasied some phenominal lovley's.
Next week is my kiddos last full week of summer and I saddened! The summer has been fun and gone by so fast! I'm with you 100%, I'm not ready for the summer to be over yet either or for my little ones to start one more year of school!
Well, now was that a post about the love of sisters or the love of kids. I timidly read the post, afraid it would bring a tear to my eye and a lump to my throat thinking it was a note about ME...but it ended up being about your babies. Oh well, I know you love me.
The end of the summer IS a sad, sad thing...but you'll never be alone, you've got 'black sheep' just down the road. I'm sure he and his toothless girlfriend would include you in any and all activities.
My little gal is dying to get to school. Little fella is going to be SHOCKED to have his mommy back all too himself. sniff.
I'm with you...I can hardly talk about it. I miss my mom when I think about things like that. I wish I could call her or do something with her...I wish I could make intentional effort to let her be a part of our lives...I'm certain she went through withdrawls when I moved out...but I was oblivious. When I hear moms say they can't wait for school to begin so the kids will be out of the house...well...I pity those moms (and their kids).
It's just too fast. It's all too fast. That's it! I'm homeschooling! Wait, no I'm not. I don't know what's going on. I'm confused. They are such delicate little souls! xoxo
Prithi,
It does hurt, but you're right--it's so worth it.
Jess,
Thanks--I think they are quite lovely, myownself.
Bekah,
You guys start earlier than us! That SUCKS, doesn't it? Whatever happened to school starting after Labor Day?
Sis,
Black Sheep got hauled off to the pokey and then his house burned down, remember? So much for that theory--I guess I'll just have to be alone...
Trish,
That's so nice to hear--I have a teacher friend who thinks I'm weird because I'm one of the few parents who ISN'T counting the days down until school starts. I guess we've just got good kids, eh?
Shan,
I shall not discuss homeschooling with you again, young lady. I like my kids home to play with, but I sure. as. heck. can't fathom having to make them do school work. Besides, you're starting school yourself soon--riiiight, Nurse Shan? :)
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